This is more of an update, I didn’t want readers to think I fell off the map. Although I have been a slightly off the grid. I just started seeing my therapist, we’ve had 4 sessions now. I really have to say it’s already helping. I am able to live in the present, ways toContinue reading “Therapy.”
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Poetry From My Past (2)
We created something beautiful that needed to be cared for, we just forgot about it somehow and it was then neglected. It started dying, weeds started sprouting. By the time we remembered what was so beautiful, all that was left was dead flowers overtaken by weeds, we tried to water it and save it. YouContinue reading “Poetry From My Past (2)”
Symptoms That Are Hard To Explain, Let Alone Talk About.
Being diagnosed with having a mental illness is not the hard part. Sometimes it’s the odd, strange side effects and symptoms that appear weird and off putting to others. Trying to hide some of these things is the hardest part of living with it. 1. Picking My Fingers I put bandaids on my thumbs sometimes,Continue reading “Symptoms That Are Hard To Explain, Let Alone Talk About.”
I Haven’t Been Writing For Months. I’m Back Though.
I haven’t been doing that much. I’m stuck in a rut that has gone on too long. I’m going to start therapy again, I have to at this point. I just turned 30, and I feel like I am nothing more than a “professional patient”. I finally realized that medication alone is not going toContinue reading “I Haven’t Been Writing For Months. I’m Back Though.”
The Darkest Time In My Life Led To My Recovery And Stability.
This was what led me to become my best self.
We Aren’t Lazy.
I would like to help people understand what mental illness does to those who suffer. First of all, it is not a walk in the park. It is not something we can just change at the snap of a finger. We hold jobs we cannot keep, leaving gaps in employment, making it difficult to moveContinue reading “We Aren’t Lazy.”
Dual Diagnosis.
“Bipolar I Disorder is an illness in which people have experienced one or more episodes of mania. Most people diagnosed with bipolar I will have episodes of both mania and depression, though an episode of depression is not necessary for a diagnosis. To be diagnosed with bipolar I, a person’s manic episodes must last at leastContinue reading “Dual Diagnosis.”
Our Truth.
This isn’t a cry for help it’s more of a lesson. Having a mood disorder, a fucking terrible one at that is exhausting. This has caused me to be completely empathetic towards anyone suffering. I get it. I understand your pain. There is no cure and our meds only make it more tolerable. There isContinue reading “Our Truth.”
Research Medications.
I used to get my meds tweaked way too often. I blame most of that on how young and uninformed I was. I was put on benzodiazepines immediately after having one panic attack. I was only 19 when I was prescribed klonopin 6mg a day as needed for anxiety. That is a ridiculous amount. IContinue reading “Research Medications.”