Mental Health Day.

I am bipolar 1.

I was hospitalized when I was 18 during a manic episode in which I knew something was wrong, I just didn’t know what it was. I was scared, yet elated. I had extreme euphoria, I had not slept for days, I was constantly irritable, I spent everything I had and more. That’s all the details I’m going to discuss. It took years to understand what was wrong with me.

It was hard to accept that I had been diagnosed with an incurable mood disorder. I am glad that Bipolar Disorder and other mental health conditions can be treated by medication and a good support system. It took me a long time to get to the point to where I am now, stable and in control of my life.

Enough about me though. I don’t want to share the entire story. It’s long.

The mental health community includes some of the strongest people you will ever meet. We are extremely empathetic and compassionate. We ask that you take into consideration that we have a disability. Unfortunately it’s a disability that you can’t see. It’s very real, it’s hard to talk about without feeling judged which is just sad. I’ve been advocating for mental health for a reason. Better healthcare is needed for those who suffer, many suffer in silence because of the stigma they attach to themselves because they are ashamed of what society deems them to be.

We aren’t to blame for mass shootings. That. Is. So. Painful.

We struggle but we are strong as hell, we fight everyday to live meaningful lives, we are artists and free thinkers. We are humanitarians by nature because we know what it is like to feel pain. We advocate for ourselves in order to be seen as equal society members. We are not less than anyone else.

Just keep that in mind.

I have green hair because I like it, also because it is the color of the mental health awareness ribbon.

Published by capricious.capo

I am diagnosed as Bipolar 1. I am an advocate for mental health awareness and have helped fundraise towards nonprofit organizations like NAMI. I write about my own personal struggles and success stories to help end a national stigma that hurts and alienates those who battle mental illness. Beyond fighting for mental health awareness, I am tech nerd, hair enthusiast, film buff and music lover. I love my family and support system with all my heart. I have green hair and tattoos because I want to. I’ve always stood out in one way or another. I studied photography and received an associates degree. I have my high school AP literature teacher to thank for inspiring me to pursue journalism, and for writing me a heartfelt letter of recommendation that I still have as a reminder. High school was a decade ago, but in times like these, Publishing an opinionated, personal and maybe controversial blog about living with a mood disorder seemed like a good enough start.

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