This isn’t a cry for help it’s more of a lesson. Having a mood disorder, a fucking terrible one at that is exhausting. This has caused me to be completely empathetic towards anyone suffering. I get it. I understand your pain. There is no cure and our meds only make it more tolerable. There is only hope and the belief that tomorrow will be better. I am not perfect, I try my hardest to keep it in check. Sometimes though, we have to accept when it can be bad. Trying to fight through the worst episode is the most intense, frightening, frustrating and painful thing one can do. So rest. Let it happen. It won’t last forever, but the Disorder always will. It isn’t a choice. Many of us were born with it, a disease of the brain, chemical misfiring. We are often misunderstood, yet we are born with this extra pressure. Life is hard enough as it is without the added craziness. So to anyone suffering or wanting to give up, don’t. You still have to live even if it’s hard. Also, to our loved ones, we are never intentionally trying to hurt you. Please understand that.
Published by capricious.capo
I am diagnosed as Bipolar 1. I am an advocate for mental health awareness and have helped fundraise towards nonprofit organizations like NAMI. I write about my own personal struggles and success stories to help end a national stigma that hurts and alienates those who battle mental illness. Beyond fighting for mental health awareness, I am tech nerd, hair enthusiast, film buff and music lover. I love my family and support system with all my heart. I have green hair and tattoos because I want to. I’ve always stood out in one way or another. I studied photography and received an associates degree. I have my high school AP literature teacher to thank for inspiring me to pursue journalism, and for writing me a heartfelt letter of recommendation that I still have as a reminder. High school was a decade ago, but in times like these, Publishing an opinionated, personal and maybe controversial blog about living with a mood disorder seemed like a good enough start. View more posts