True Love Is Not Impossible Just Because I’m Bipolar.

8B0D6CC1-A031-401F-9DE2-DEE61891873EI’m just being honest here.  I do believe that having any mental illness is incredibly taxing on a relationship, but both partners need to do the work. 

The way I handle stress or just everyday life can seem to be dramatic to say the least.  I’m doing the best I can in my relationship and it hasn’t been easy.  Often times I find myself over thinking and over analyzing what I could do better.  It can be difficult to control my illness in a way to be in a positive relationship.  When I’m having an episode, sometimes things really trigger me and I can be mean and hard to be around and I will sometimes lash out on the people closest to me.  Being in a relationship means I have to be especially aware of triggers.  

Luckily, I have been stable for quite some time. (YAY)

I was lucky enough to find the man of my dreams.  I met him a long time ago, yet we have only been together for almost 3 years.  He is so patient.  That is one of the many reasons I am marrying this incredible man.

When I met my fiance, I laid it out on the table, “hey just so you know I am bipolar and I take meds and I can be weird sometimes”.  I didn’t expect him to totally understand because it is impossible to understand.  I still struggle understanding my true emotions too.

All I can say at this point is I feel safe with him.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve this kind of love.

Everyone deserves true love.

I’m Happy.

Published by capricious.capo

I am diagnosed as Bipolar 1. I am an advocate for mental health awareness and have helped fundraise towards nonprofit organizations like NAMI. I write about my own personal struggles and success stories to help end a national stigma that hurts and alienates those who battle mental illness. Beyond fighting for mental health awareness, I am tech nerd, hair enthusiast, film buff and music lover. I love my family and support system with all my heart. I have green hair and tattoos because I want to. I’ve always stood out in one way or another. I studied photography and received an associates degree. I have my high school AP literature teacher to thank for inspiring me to pursue journalism, and for writing me a heartfelt letter of recommendation that I still have as a reminder. High school was a decade ago, but in times like these, Publishing an opinionated, personal and maybe controversial blog about living with a mood disorder seemed like a good enough start.

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