I’m just being honest here. I do believe that having any mental illness is incredibly taxing on a relationship, but both partners need to do the work.
The way I handle stress or just everyday life can seem to be dramatic to say the least. I’m doing the best I can in my relationship and it hasn’t been easy. Often times I find myself over thinking and over analyzing what I could do better. It can be difficult to control my illness in a way to be in a positive relationship. When I’m having an episode, sometimes things really trigger me and I can be mean and hard to be around and I will sometimes lash out on the people closest to me. Being in a relationship means I have to be especially aware of triggers.
Luckily, I have been stable for quite some time. (YAY)
I was lucky enough to find the man of my dreams. I met him a long time ago, yet we have only been together for almost 3 years. He is so patient. That is one of the many reasons I am marrying this incredible man.
When I met my fiance, I laid it out on the table, “hey just so you know I am bipolar and I take meds and I can be weird sometimes”. I didn’t expect him to totally understand because it is impossible to understand. I still struggle understanding my true emotions too.
All I can say at this point is I feel safe with him.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve this kind of love.
Everyone deserves true love.